I could have written this myself. Its been almost 4 months since my termination with my old T and some days the pain is still as intense as when we ended. I miss her terribly. She was the greatest therapist who really got me. I really miss the way things were before. She has a new job now and it kills me that other people get her care like I once did.

I think its normal and ok to still be hurting months after termination. It takes time to heal and for the pain to lessen. Grief has no time line. Take all the time you need to grieve. Cry, scream, talk with someone and do whatever you need to do to get it out. I am sorry you are struggling so much. I hope the pain gets better and you can somehow keep her in your heart and all the memories and the stuff she taught you. No one can take any of that away and your work with her will always exist.