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Originally Posted by leomama
Hmm. That's interesting. At this point there is nothing a non PD can teach me in a relationship . I don't have straight ahead BPD, I have a little bit of this and a little bit of that, if you've been following any of my posts on the forums but I've got a lot going on inside of me. The BPD stuff is the volatility and the reactivity but that's strictly internal now, but my soul feels like a combustion engine. I've got a therapist working with me on this stuff but I hate to say it, I probably find "nons" boring. I know that's not healthy for most people but when you've had a PD yourself, well what's healthy for everyone else doesn't really resonate.
I do believe it is possible to recover from a PD.
Sorry if I'm a mess. [emoji1]
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Funny thing is the only non i have in my life is my partner. Sometimes I wonder how I ended up with her when I struggle to understand "normal" and most of my friends all have similar issues to me. She's opened up a whole world that I'm not familiar with and I think I'm curious to see if It's possible to live a normal life. Sometimes it doesn't work so well as I compare myself too much to her. Maybe I was meant to meet her for a reason. The hardest thing about it is meeting her "normal" friends and family!!
I get what you mean about finding nons boring, normally I would end up with someone like me. I dunno maybe my ex scared me a bit too much. Maybe I don't want to be like my mum. I'm not sure if my sexuality plays into any of it.
I would like to think we can recover from personality disorders.
Just having a read through your posts, haven't been on very much recently.
Don't apologise for being a mess it's not like you can help it.
I'm probably waffling a bit right now, I've had my night time meds xx
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