I'm new to this forum and just happen to stumble upon it through Google...
Some background, I'm 34 married with a 5 year old. Life as I knew it was pretty easy going, I worked traveled and had a happy marriage... About a year after my son was born (he hardly slept the first year ... Which obviously neither did we) the nightmares started ... Which turned out to be flashbacks... Flashbacks that I had no idea what the hell they were, when they were or even if they were real at first. The nights went by and more and more flashbacks and nightmares... As if a movie was playing out continuously where I had left off the night before.

Anxiety kicked in on a daily basis and also a fear of people ... I didn't know what was happening, up until this point I was functional and "normal" so to speak.

Last year it got so bad I could no longer function at my job of 10 years and voluntarily took a lesser paying job in another dept. as to avoid stressful situations and Having to interact with people.

It got to the point where I started questioning my brothers and sisters ... Sure enough the visions I had were true and did happen. We were all molested, sold for child pornagraphy, sold for sex and also abused and drugged By our father..

The odd thing is, up until this "awakening"... We were all close to our parents (breakast together on Sundays, travelng together on vacations and such) ... All of those years and I didn't remember a thing. It was never brought up... No apology nothing. They went along as did my brothers (they were also predators) as if nothing ever happened. Odd thing is my parents are good people today ... Yet, I won't allow them tp babysit my son (is that so wrong ? )

Now i'm living life in a job That i never really intended on doing... In fear, afraid, amxious, alone, on edge and depressed all balled up in one.

How do you beat this ptsd stuff ? Its going on 3 years and not showing any signs of letting go of its grip. I really think it's starting to affect my parenting skills and also my marriage.

(Sorry for the long 1st post) I just really need some guidance and also a place to Vent.