I track my moods in a regular line paper notebook. For a year, I was tracking EVERYTHING it seemed - symptoms, skills I used, sleep I got, time I went to bed, time I woke up, taking my pills, and much more. I also wrote down a normal kind of journal entry every day with details. I was looking for patterns.
I highly recommend it.
For me, we found that there aren't any patterns. 11 months of intense mood journaling, and it turns out that there aren't an patterns in what I do with what my bipolar does. It is disheartening sometimes, but it is the only thing that could have made me truly realize that I don't have control over bipolar. Without 11 months of trying to find patterns and seeing no patterns except a LACK of patterns, I would still think I should be doing something to fix it. Now I know that my bipolar is truly beyond my control and I just need to do what I can to cope with my life and what it does to my life.
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Dx: Bipolar II, ultra rapid cycling but meds help with the severity of cycling.
Rx: lamictal, seroquel, lithium
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