I saw my normal psychologist today he said i still need to be in hospital and that there is something going on that really needs addressing that is different to what everyone thought before and he wants me to go to the other ward i was at before the one where i cant get away with things as much. The doctors at this ward want to discharge me it may even be tomorrow i want to leave but i am scared i will end up in hospital again. Ugh this is too much effort.