Three and a half years ago, when I first learned I was pregnant, I'm pretty sure I had a nervous breakdown. Besides the stress from being an expectant mother, I also had numerous other contributing factors. One of those factors was a very mean spirited 'friend' who told me I was unfit to be a parent and should just have an abortion. Regardless, I kind of lost it. I couldn't eat; was dry heaving; having one long constant panic attack; and my bowels turned to liquid. I felt as if I was literally falling. I stayed in bed for two or three weeks, drinking chicken broth, ensure and anything I could keep down. The anxiety was constant and one particular night I remember ripping the tags off all our pillows with my teeth.
I remember my now husband calling a friend of mine to ask what to do. She told him to check me into the hospital, which quite frankly, terrified me. I was especially worried about the stress that would cause because I was pregnant. I wasn't working then, I had dropped out of grad school a year prior, so I pretty much just slowly kinda got my **** together and stayed at home. For months I felt like a recluse. It was a gradual thing, but it definitely got better, and I was in a decent state of mind by the time I gave birth to my beautiful daughter.
If anyone asked, I just said I had morning sickness, which I did have for months afterwards, and that seemed to suffice. I've tried to just look foreword and not look back, but upon reflection, I'm pretty sure I had a nervous breakdown. Has anyone experienced a breakdown to know if what I've described sounds like one?