I'm on a thread roll these days.

So I found these:

https://www.psychologytoday.com/blog...oblem-colleges

Column: What's making students 'less resilient'? | PBS NewsHour

And of course, related well (granted, I've been called much worse things than ***** and have lived with a mouse in my apartment - I bought some poison and dealt with it. However, any kind of direct confrontation makes me very, very anxious. Heart pounding, shaking, the whole bit). My mom always said it was a delayed adolescence caused by my father's death, but now I see the real reason:

I'm a terrible person, and so is the rest of my generation.

We are weak, despicable, useless excuses for human beings. We need, deserve to be hurt and to suffer. Those of us who live at home (and I'm one of them) are entitled and evil, and deserve to be on the street if we can't afford rent, or to stave to death if there's no money for food, like mature, responsible adults. We should be reminded ever minute of our worthlessness, because it's objecive fact. We need to be tortured in our adult lives, since we didn't have enough pain in childhood.

Look at the comments. I'm starting to think that's really the core problem: we're all just inherently bad people who need to adopt lifestyles of rigid executive repentence to atone for ourselves. The things we were taught as children are wrong: we are not good or worthy, nothing is okay or will ever be.