I'm not sure why i'm posting but i have no one else to share with. I have really been grieving my son's decision to transition to womanhood. I'm going to miss him so much, but maybe I took a step today. I asked for a picture of Gennifer (her new self) I'm a visual person, so my hope is that this will make it easier for her and help me in the process of acceptance. When I say acceptance, I don't mean of her decision or new identity; but acceptance of this new normal.
I will admit, i've been hurting. The rest of the family isn't ready, but I'm tired of living in this limbo hell. No one wants to talk about the elephant in the living room. just ignore it and the situation will magically go away.... that 's crap and i just can't do it any more.
my heart just plain hurts today and i haven't been sleeping well at all.
Thanks for listening...
you know, the hard part is just not being able to process it all. I shouldn't have posted anything because now the tears start, my heart hurts and i'm anxious. i'm just so tired and feel so alone.