But know wait a minute...isn't T really "there"?? I mean I only have to remember how connected we are in session and the feelings back......I mean shes away next week but shes not "gone" she still exists...I haven't been left alone for ever...theres that invisible bond still there...ohhhhhhhhh maybe this is the pain inside of me that I have refused to look at...its so huge that the only way to even begin to look at it is to feel its T's fault which would mean T can fix it if only I had the nerve to ask and then I would never have to feel abandoned again...except T can only help me with it..help? Oh that sounds like a clinical term..you mean there is something that i am going ot need HELP with? yuk