I am not ashamed of the depression per se but I am ashamed of who I am. I feel like I haven't done enough with my career or my life, I can't get myself to do things for home or work.

I don't cry at all since I have been on SSRIs. They have helped to a certain extent. I don't break down in tears and I can get out of bed. No one really knows except my husband. Friends know I have it but not when and how bad. I get out, go to the office, meet friends etc. But when I am home or sometimes at the office it all falls apart. I feel numb and I just cannot seem to do anything.