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Originally Posted by Trace14
My first T with EOC, not sure you could call her a T, but for respect I will. She told me I was stoic. Kind of ticked me off, so I stopped seeing her and went on to find another T since I still had insurance. One said she was surprised that I didn't cry. So up to date now a guy from the HOA said that he liked me being on the board because I was so emotionless and saw things on a factual basis.
I can see where being emotionless or numb could be a benefit. But that's not who I used to be. I've always been a people person and worked in public service. It's like my soul has left me. Anyone else gone through something like this?
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You are describing my daughter. When she broke her leg when she was 12 the pediatric doctor in the ER said she was the most stoic child she had ever seen. My daughter cuts off her emotions. One of my support people said she probably had PTSD from a traumatic experience she had a few years ago. I'm trying to prevent the development of c-PTSD in my daughter. My therapist is working on getting a psychiatrist for her to do an evaluation . The pediatric psychiatrist I took her totally dismissed what I was reporting to him.
I tell you this story because I think it illustrates the seriousness of untreated trauma and to encourage you to have compassion for yourself.
I hope this has been useful.
I can also say when one of my first p docs treating my c PTSD I was mad that I started feeling grief. My ACA sponsor wanted me to start working with my grief but it was too much for me. I'm now working on my reactivity with my new therapist, however that is a different problem then you have. I did have a PD and I still have some residue from that.
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