I'll share something a bit personal about a similar experience.

In my 20's I experienced a lot of depression. I ended up with no gpa from the first school because of a complete withdrawal, and then withdrew from the next school because I was failing. I still had a lot of depression mostly from my triggers and living in an abusive household.

After that, I attended a new school (community college, last one was also cc) and barely scraped by with a 2.5-2.7. I went to a large university within a couple of semesters and enrolled as a non-degree student. I was a nondegree student for A LONG TIME, because I failed after my first year. My first term was really tough because I kept getting sick from not having medication for my health issues, and I worked too much. I was living on my own at the time, and it was really tough being straight out of my parents house and figuring it all out.

I ended up on academic suspension twice from the same school. The first time is because I tried to take on too many classes and was working and of course, had poor health. I also had depression and didn't really know how to manage it. Life can really suck when you don't have health insurance, can't get medicine, and can't go to a psychologist. The second time I was suspended was because I didn't follow the academic plan laid out for me and got overconfident. It happens.

It took me a while to figure out, did I really want to be a student again and did I really want to finish college? If I was going to go back, I had to own being a student. Which meant owning up to the fact that I needed to accept how many classes I take, and had to accept doing my homework, getting decent grades, and managing my depression. It was really tough because I didn't tell anyone I was academically suspended until later...I only told a couple of people who've been in the same boat. It felt like a secret I was harboring because of the shame and depression and feeing like a failure.

I fortunately overcame it later on. Technically speaking, I've "restarted university" 4 times since I was 18! Twice after my suspensions and then going back to school for new degrees afterward. I do have to say, there is hope in learning from your mistakes. It teaches you what your limits are. It teaches you what you really want out of your academic plans and life. It teaches you what your habits are, how you've matured, what you need to continue growing, and frankly what you don't give a **** about and that's okay.

My GPA rose with each school attendance. My first graduating gpa was a 2.8 or 2.9, and my last gpa at a different school was 3.1. I ended up failing a couple classes at that school because of depression, stress, and being overwhelmed. After I retook the classes my gpa went up and I ended up getting on the President's list a couple of semesters. My current gpa at an entirely new school (for a new degree) is a 4.0.

You aren't a failure and you will find a way to finish your degree with better grades. Sometimes crap happens and things fall apart in life. That means school takes the shaft so you can get your health together. If you know what you want out of school and how to do it, take it slow first.