@Wild Coyote:

I don't know if they'll listen deeply to me -- that's my concern. There's a 50-50 chance they will listen to me. Otherwise, they'll probably tell me that I need to learn how to stop being so moody etc etc. I mean, my dad already told me I "need to learn how to stop having panic attacks". (Yeah, like that's ever going to happen.)

I don't know if my parents would be like yours. While I definitely think my dad would tell the whole world about my depression, he might also add that I'm "young and naturally moody"... or something like that. Then he'd blame everything on me being "immature", not on BP or depression. That's the thing.

If my efforts to get through to them fail, they'll probably start harassing me, telling me to "grow up" and such. "Don't blame 'depression' on your behavior", blah blah blah. "It's not depression if you stop thinking it is." But if I succeed, then they'll be supportive and nice to me, and they'll stop giving me a hard time about everything.

What I want to tell them is:
Sometimes I'm not talkative and I stay in my room all day because I'm not feeling well. I'm not trying to ignore you or the world; I just need my alone time. And it upsets me when you harass me about staying in my room all day, or harass me about stupid little things that I'm not in the mood to do, for example, "c'mon, why don't you go spend time with your friends? you haven't done this in a while. how come you don't do it? why? why not? why why why why why" WELL I DON'T HAVE ANY FRIENDS. "why is that? c'mon, go makes some friends. why don't you do it? why why why why why". I'M NOT IN THE MOOD TO DO IT. "then stop being so moody. why are you so moody? why why why why why? stop being like that. that's why you have no friends."

I'm not trying to be an asshole or be snappy with you. I literally just feel like **** and want to be left alone. I want you to respect that. I also want you to be supportive and not question everything I do or question my true feelings. Being supportive means you leave me alone when I ask you to, and it also means you stop badgering me over things that you clearly know don't matter.

I also want you to stop accusing me of "over-exaggerating" things, and "faking" things. For example, panic attacks? I don't do that on purpose, so leave me alone about it. If I'm depressed, I don't do it on purpose, so leave me alone about that too. It's not something you can just "snap out of", so don't just assume that I'm being "moody" or "immature".

I'm not the kind of person who wants to talk about my depression when I'm depressed, so please don't ask me "what's wrong" or "why are you being this way"? I'm not trying to be cold. I just don't want to talk about it, which is why my idea of being "supportive" means leaving me ALONE.