To be honest we all need help someone to talk to not to carry your problems but to help us but I feel like I have kept my mouth shut when I needed a hand. I felt like I never wanted them to carry my hurt my problems so I stayed silent I desperately wanted to tell them "you know what I can't do this I need you to help me help me find away out of this isolation this employability this dependence on my mother" but then I stopped myself because I wondered are they just another person for me to become dependent on fixing me, how much help can they give me to empower me where do the benefits stop? How do I know they well not just trigger another abandonment issue? I ask myself this and then I ask myself how can I help myself what why am I thinking that I could change. Could I become more involved with other fix my resume. Why am I always forgetting about my responsibilities? Am I unsure of being responsible if so how can I wrap my mind on the idea of being more responsible and independent?