I just got home from therapy , so I'm just plain wiped out. I am trying to keep everyone happy and it's not working anymore. I'm dying inside and no one understands. actually that is not true, a wise person shared my grief for a while today and made it ok. Of course, it is so hard to let myself cry because I'm afraid I'll shatter into a million little pieces.
I never anticipated my child being transgender, I thought we were all ok. I never saw the pain they were feeling.... how could i have been so blind? It feels so selfish to grieve when I should be celebrating her new life, but the truth is I will miss my strong handsome, loving son... our family had dealt with so much already, teen pregnancy, bullying, running away because of the bullying, 2 divorces among my 3 kids, and so much other crap. But why do we get to go through this too?! I love my children so much, I want to make everything all better and have everyone be loving and accepting , but I can't seem to do it! I'm just so wiped out and afraid that I don't have the strength to keep everyone happy!