No fair getting "senses" about T's; have to ask them how they're feeling :-) I wouldn't like my T guessing that I feel a certain way so doubt she'd like me doing that to her either.

Write out some of the exploding/crap/stuff? That use to keep me going when my T was away. I'd buy college testing booklets and make them into little "journals", 1 per week. I'd mail them to my T's office at the end of each week. Helped me keep track of time when my T was away and make me feel like I was doing something "useful".