Anxiety and wanting to live are two things to work on!! What isn't being said is that your clinic that you work with only seems to believe in short term therapy. From someone in very long term therapy. There is always room for increased happiness and functioning and having the same t for more than eighteen months would do you wonders. Is there any we to find affordable care outside your clinic??? I worry that they are doing you a disservice by making you feel like what you need is not an option. No other illness do they push you so hard to go without care!! It burns me sorry to rant.