I don't know what else to say. I cannot STAND being manic at all. I take 160mg/month half ok plus lithium blood level of 4.5-5.5 to avoid it. The trazodone really helps with the depression. But. With the way I am and how my meds work, I am manic all night and depressed during the day. The trazodone doesn't even help with sleep I just have to find the courage to go to bed or my next day is ruined. 3 meals a day, exercise, hygiene. But I am just so depressed most of the time, I kind of have to ignore my heart or it causes me anxiety, and grasp my soul so close it hurts. This is where I am most happy.