I use the phone A LOT trying to keep company and if I don't eat red meat I feel HORRIBLE. Probably shouldn't be smoking, but I do. Case in point BP2 is a help of an illness. I wish I could work more and contribute to society but I am just so ill. All day people coming up to me and asking me if I am OK. I just tell them that I am alright or that I am tired. Just SO SO hard to go on but I will make it through. I know that I will. I believe I will.