<font color="#000088">I'm so sorry you're going through this ickydog! It isn't your fault what's going on with your parents. It was wrong for your Mother to put the blame on you for her drug use, even if she has her own stress over whatever,it's her choice how she deals with it. Not your fault, how she deals with it! I'm sorry she blamed you for that,she was wrong,and out of line! You have a life of your own,as an adult,and you're only responsible for what you do, not what she does!
I think finding other ways to distract you from all that tension is a great idea, even though it's much easier said than done! It's better to atleast try! I've been putting my energy in taking out my anger in playing my video game, and it's been working for me. Maybe you can find something to do to get your frustrations out to, like writing down how you feel, then maybe burning it. I used to do that,and it helped. It's worth a shot,just a suggestion. But know that I'm here for you to,and you can PM me anytime as well! (((((((ickydog)))))) </font>