Kimberly, there is one other phenomenon I did not mention and that is between the voices within and the voices without, if there is "white noise" I will hear voices in it -- whispering or talking, always just below my hearing "threshhold" so I cannot make out what they are saying but I can tell it's voices and language. Kind of like overhearing a conversation while the water is running -- you know people are talking but you can't tell what exactly they are saying or talking about.
This is the one that drives me nuts. It happens mostly when I'm trying to go to sleep. Sometimes it's a precursor to full-blown "visions" (whether good, bad, intriguing or terrifying); sometimes it's just THERE and annoying. I'm constantly waking my mate up by going, "Did you hear THAT?" LOL So i had to laugh when I read that part of your post.
Sometimes I can't get out of bed in the morning because so many of them are talking to me all at once and they put me in this dreamlike state but I'm awake. I want to sleep more but I can't. They tell me all kinds of useless things or show me pictures of people I don't know (this happens before falling asleep too). Like last night they showed me this woman with really big eyes and an irritated face with her hair pulled back. This morning they told me some address in California -- 5250 - something, I don't remember what it was. I talk back to them too. I said, "So what do you want me to do with THIS information?" all sarcastic. Satan was talking to me too and messing with me sexually so He could extract binding allegiances from me. He likes to do that when I'm vulnerable and He knows I can't resist Him because I can't remember how or even why I'm supposed to, it never makes any sense. He gets right inside me. I know we aren't supposed to talk about politics or religion here but this has nothing to do with religion, I don't believe in a theological "devil" or something if you know what I mean. anyway I have so many religious-themed obsessions and experiences I don't know anymore what's real and what's not. But I figure if other people are allowed to talk about having conversations with "Bunny Fru-Fru" and it's not assumed this is their "religion" in the debating / arguing / proselytizing / faith sense then I claim the same right for my "Satan" and my conversations & sexual interaction with Him. It has nothing to do with religion and I'm not looking to push any belief system on anyone, but just to describe what I experience. The problem is the name and even the experiences tend to "mean" things to people and then they want to "go there" about it but I don't. Maybe I should just start referring to Him as "S" and just say it's "one of my voices" or whatever but it's more than a "voice", He interacts with me in other ways too. I can't explain this right now I'm not fully awake yet and my brain is mush.
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