I think I will always be ashamed of the attempt that resulted from my depression. I traumatized my family; a successful attempt would have really ruined them. There might be situations were suicide is understandable but that certainly didn't apply to me. When my mother got cancer, she fought so hard to hang on in order to be there for her children. I was relatively healthy, don't have it that bad, my family loves me yet I discounted their feelings. Yeah, it was horrible.