i think i'm less ashamed of my depression, and more ashamed that my life has turned out how it has

parents who wanted nothing more than to get rid of me

first mental health scare at 9 (taking any childhood memories i had, and a chance to finish childhood)

failing school, and spending most of it in an out of hospital until they refused to have me back

being told i can't work because of my problems

having family/ friends desert me, leaving me completely alone

attempting suicide 6 times (1 almost worked, and left me in hospital over christmas)
not having any idea or hope of a future

granted, i think depression has a part to play, but i don't belong in this world.. never have done, never will

i'm ashamed to take up so much space just doing **** all