How are you doing Myrto. Have you seen your T again since? I know that the road of searching for a new T is hard, if that is still the route you are thinking of taking, but I believe it can be worth it. I understand it takes energy and time but maybe you can take your time if you want it to be more relaxed, to make sure you find someone who is the right fit. Needing therapy for therapy is not stupid or pathetic. This T didn't really do right by you and that really is sad and hurtful, but it isn't your fault. Hope you are doing OK anyway.