Ok, brief summary. 5+ years on the couch, 3-4 times/week. Intense maternal erotic transference that,ultimately, caused me so much longing and pain that I terminated in February 2014. Took me about 2 months to feel comfortable again.

Fast forward. One year ago from yesterday, my sister died, leaving me a niece, who I love dearly, in college in New Hampshire. I'm in Texas. I go there and discover my sister was a massive hoarder(like on the TV shows). I was on high dose steroids and found they gave me so much energy,I was able in 3 visits to NH, to deal with everything and my niece.

I get home. Geez, my back is hurting. More long story short - I'd deveoped severe premature osteoporosis of my pelvis, hips and spine. 5 fractures total. Off work 5 1/2 months. Go back to work April 1, 2016 using a rolling walker. On 4/15 we had severe flash flooding in Houston on my way to see my orthopedist's and barely got out of my car. The water was up to my chest in my car and on the 3rd attempt, got out using every bit of energy in every cell of my body. I was NOT going to die in that car. Swam done, hobbled home the rest of way being so careful not to fall and injure myself. This took me over an hour to walk/swim less than a 1/2 mile.

Fast forward, both parents go into hospice and die 4/20 and 4/26. I deal with cremations, packing etc.

Ok, we're cool. Then, my daughter starts showing signs of the excessive OCD behavior and anxiety. I text my old therapist and ask for an appropriate referral. My daughter goes 6 times and tells me it's not helping. I'm thinking, does she need CBT to learn coping skills, I didn't know. So I contact ex therapist again and ask for advice. She suggests we meet to get a better sense of what is going on with my daughter.

OMG, see her again????

For those you that have followed my story, you know that , even when I literally begged for a hug during my long and intense analysis, nope, no touchy.

When I met with her yesterday, to talk about my daughter, I got a massive hug from her. Just like an old friend. No more, no less for me. So she wanted to hear about my year and my perceptions of what was causing my daughter 's problems. She recommended psychological testing for my daughter (who is scary intelligent) and some other stuff. After the testing-with another therapist, we'll get together again and talk about how to best move forward. Our time was up AND.... I got another massive hug and how happy she was to see me.

No return of transference. Just grateful she can help me get the help my daughter needs.

All I can, again, is OMG.

Thanks for listening ❣