Granite; hang in there, and just go to therapy with an open mind and try and talk about what is hurting you the most at the moment. Please don't hurt yourself! Your mother is NOT worth the pain you put yourself through. I agree w ATAT, she might get "offended" if you don't call, but I guarantee it won't be the end-bc she does love to control you too much. I would cheer and dance if she said she was done w you. All she does is cause you pain, in so many different ways.