To start I guess I should say what I hate. Well, I feel incredibly fat, I have acne, I have issues with razor bumps/burn, "chicken skin", body hair that grows fast, pretty much I just feel so ugly. So this is going to be long.

Ever since I was a little girl I have always had weight issues!! I've always been big, I was the fattest of my life back in Middle School until I couldn't take it anymore and went anorexic, I stayed anorexic for a few years until I was able to stop and get at a healthy weight. However, suddenly after a stay at my sisters for a month, I suddenly gained a lot of weight when I got back home!! About 10-15 pounds if not more and I feel so fat again, I feel like I'm back at square one!!! Well, I am doing 400 crunches a night to try to get rid of this belly fat and eating healthy but I don't know what to do!!!

I feel stuck! I can't get my acne to fade even though I try to wash my face all through the day!! If I feel greasy or sweaty I use a face wipe!! I also do aspirin masks and other face masks at times, but it won't go away!!!!

Suddenly I have gained weight again and am breaking out like crazy!!!! On my face even this spot of skin between and above my breasts!!! My upper arms have "chicken skin" as well as my back even though I do use lotion though maybe not as often as I should??

I also have MAJOR body hair issues...I am Italian so people just brush it off and say oh well its cause you're Italian...but I feel so ugly and disgusting!!!! I grow hair pretty much everywhere!!! and when growing up this freaked me out!! No one told me it was normal, no one was there for me to say hey it's okay, before it was just peach fuzz but it freaked me out because I didn't know it was normal or okay so I shaved it all through middle and highschool I shaved pretty much everywhere to get rid of that peach fuzz and now it's dark coarse and long and grows FAST now I feel screwed..it'll never go away or stop!!! It's embarrassing and I feel horrible!!! I feel like I have to shave every day!!! I grow dark long hairs on my breasts, in between my breasts and a little spot on my chest, my upper lip, chin, stomach, arms, the back of my thighs, all around the bikini area and of course my vagina too....it doesn't seem normal!!! and I feel so gross!!!! I shave every other day but the very next day it's already growing back and quite long!!!! I can't afford laser hair removal and creams are bad I heard what do I do!? I also have/get bad razor bumps along my bikini area, I feel like it's gross if I don't shave it but when I do I still feel gross because of the red bumps that won't go away...

I feel so ugly and like I always will be ugly, I'm so depressed and don't want to be seen by anyone!!! I don't even feel comfortable with the thought of trying to be with a man in any sexual way or even anyone seeing me in a swimsuit...I am 20 years old and am scared to be touched by my boyfriend even hugs I suck it in and don't enjoy it because I feel so fat...I'm afraid to kiss him and have him feel chin hair and be disgusted....
I feel so lost and like there's no help for me like I'm the only one in the world with so many issues....I really just feel like the ugliest and most disgusting female in the world......