the picture i'm painting here is shallow...meh it's hard to tell a life story. and "deleting me" is something he does to people sometimes. When something like this happens and it affects him, he reduces the hurt on himself by getting rid of people. he literally deletes them...out of his IM programs, phone, myspace, etc. Then he gradually forgets them. He did answer the phone when I called...maybe that's a step...I"m trying SO hard to just step back and take it one day at a time. it's killing me but i know i have to...he needs space and I need to force myself to give him space even though it's the most difficult thing for me to do. I just don't deal well with even the smallest things...I freak out and can't handle it...like I was earlier and I'm struggling to avoid doing now. and I thank you so much for just talking with me...no one else would...