It has been a long time since I have cut and never thought I would let myself do it again, it has been years since I made any serious cuts.

I fell apart after a 3 week hospitalization and ended back in there for another 7 days for cutting myself. I called my therapist and he met me at the ER and went through the whole process with me but I felt so ashamed going back to the floor all cut up like that. I could feel everyone's disappointment in me. It took 18 stitches and 7 butterflies to close them up. I haven't ever cut that bad before.........I feel like such a waste of space.