I can imagine what you're going through. My fiancé, after a fight, almost left me. I begged and pleaded and we're still together. This was just three weeks ago. He's giving me probation time to get my bipolar and drinking under control. Which in doing very good at.

As far as your ex. I think she gave you a fine explanation about how she's changed and isn't herself anymore. This happens in a relationship or not. I'm a totally different person from 7 years ago. You may be too. I hate to say it but maybe this "new" her lost love for you but was working in the relationship to get it back as you said everything seemed fine. She could of been a great faker or tried to convince herself that everything is ok. Only to find out it wasn't.

As far as the emails. She told you she was grieving which is very normal after a breakup. If I were you, I'd cut communication for awhile and both of you find yourselves. You're single now and you're hurt. The more you communicate, the slower the wound will heal. But I get it, I would be crushed and it would be hard. I would suggest maybe therapy. Hell I would need it after this too.

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