I hope you will have a better night. I had so much going through my mind I didn't get much sleep and I am having a visitor come over soon. I haven't seen him in almost 40 years. We are going to order Chinese food and watch a movie. This should be interesting. I'm trying to ignore what is going on with my ptsd for awhile and just relax if I can. It's very hard though. My friend is on oxygen so I know he won't stay real long, he has a ways to travel. I guess I worry a bit about the awkwardness of not seeing each other for so many years. I'm just going to try and be a welcoming hostess for awhile and it should go okay. He knows I have mental health issues. Maybe it will even be a good time. I hope so. I always get nervous when getting together with guys. I know he is harmless, though.