It's brave of you to admit this.

You're very bright and well written. I've read many of your posts for a long while. Your concerns are very introspective. You seem to lack a sense of self. You're still quite young, so this may be a symptom of a very bright, young woman finding herself.

But, it seems you're not thriving. I agree that a therapist will help. Also, you mentioned ADHD and being someone who doesn't finish things on another thread- me too, me too! I'm 50 and never did find myself.