I feel a bit upset about my therapy session last week. I feel like I might be making too much of it but I'm not sure. Not sure if I'm doing the TW right so I'll scroll it down a bit in case I screwed up
Possible trigger:
I related a few memories of childhood and sexual abuse at the hands of my much older step brother when I was 7-8 years old. I had talked about it with him before and had felt he was sympathetic. There was no rape but he was highly inappropriate and persistent with me, and I feel it sexualized me quite early to the point where I became sexually aggressive with my friends who slept over. The point of me talking about it was to lead into the fact that I feel I use sex as a maladaptive coping skill, and that I sexualize intimacy with people. I didn't get to this point in the discussion however because he cut me off and said, offhandedly,"so you were 'activated' a few years early". I reminded him that I was 7, and he told me that many kids are interested in sex at 5th or 6th grade, so I was just a "few years early". I said, "so I should just forget about it?", and I was inwardly very upset at this point and don't recall what he said, but it was along the lines of "no, but..."
Am I crazy to feel upset? I feel more upset the more I think about it.