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Originally Posted by kevin_pc
Was diagnosed with Complex PTSD and depression initially. My therapist who is a specialist in PTSD and dissociative disorders tells me I have fragments though (Other Specified Dissociative Disorder-1). I guess I'm still processing this. I mean I always feel like me. I don't feel like a system. I don't have alters and I don't have amnesia between fragments. It's just that sometimes my perspective will change suddenly, and sometimes I'll know I should/shouldn't do something but just can't. (According to DID-research.org my 'symptoms' fall under OSDD-1B.)
I've been flipping back and forth between thinking OSDD-1 explains a lot about me and thinking I absolutely do not have OSDD-1 or trauma. I guess I'm confused and scared. I've been feeling pretty depersonalized though.
Are there other people with OSDD-1 on here who can relate to these reactions to being diagnosed?
Does having fragments mean I'm a median system? I mean sometimes I feel like I'm a median system but that could just be because I'm feeling stressed. Most times I don't feel like a system at all! Are there other people who have been diagnosed OSDD-1 who say they're NOT systems? (At least part of the time) ;-)
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I could have written this 100%. In fact, wow. I literally did write this exact thing almost word-for-word a few weeks/months ago. Can I PM you? You are so not alone. I might post my thing too. Support to you. I relate to median system although that's not a working diagnosis and is not in the DSM anywhere. But it's like I am a single identity and yet I have pieces or aspects of me that bleed into my consciousness. I do that flip-flop thing too. One minute being able to recognize or recollect something and then later none of it makes any sense. And that's how it is for me too. I will depersonalize/derealize. Also I will all the sudden "be aware" I'm "no longer me". My perspective and desires and thoughts change and I'm not me anymore. I def relate to OSDD-1B too.