Soooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo,

Some issues with college, I defaulted on a loan from a couple years ago and it's messing with my financial aid. However, I did call the loan company and they granted a loan forbearance so if I am able to get proof of that faxed to my school in time for classes tuesday afternoon, I should be okay, if not then I'll have to start another time.

Kinda flipped out about it emotionally yesterday, was extremely upset and having suicidal thoughts but I'm feeling better now. Just got to take things moment by moment. I feel like I know all kinda of coping skills but when I get hit with something like that and my emotions get out of control I completely forget them and to use them.

I was extremely stressed yesterday. Plus I'm having some money issues, it's hard to survive on the amount of money I get each month, after bills are payed I only have like 30 bucks to manage with for the entire month.

I'm considering trying ticket to work and get a part time job. It would really help