My parents and my other family members don't understand mental illness. Even though I have got a cousin who has panic attacks often. I have depression ever since I saw a pychatrist(spelling?) 7 years ago. I have felt numb for 7 years, and I bottle everything up inside. I'm almost 16, and I was taught from a very young age that emotions are for babies. I have a few memories of being really young and have my grandfather hit me for crying I was 3 and afraid of a storm and it was causing me to cry. I have memories of that same day, being 3, once we got home that day my dad started yelling at the top of his lungs at me slapping my legs and breaking my toy in front of me. I wish those could go away, I just think of those memories every once and a while. My family members get mad whenever they have to be around me. They ask why can't you drive(if I'm ever in the car with them) legally I can't by myself yet as I only have a permit. I get called fat worthless and ugly almost daily. How would you deal with this?