Hi I understand how you feel a lot of what you say I feel the same. I binge ate from 11 then went virtually anorexic when I was 16/17 and now I'm about 5 stone overweight and binge eat again. I try to lose weight but since I've got kids I can't get to the gym and I have to cook for them and when I smell the food I can't starve myself. I've also got body hair that I hate that's really obvious but I don't know what to do. We could compete for the ugliest female contest