My mood has been a bit on the low side this week but it's nothing major. I'm not suicidal or anything like that... But something happened the other night and I don't know if I should be worried or if it was just a one off...

I was in some kind of weird state that is hard to explain, I wasn't really aware of what I was doing, or fully in control. It was about 1am, everyone was in bed, I was in my pyjamas. I was about to head out of the house bare foot and just walk It wasn't until I made it to the back door and opened it that it clicked what I was doing and managed to stop myself. But the urge was very much still there.

This has never happened to me before. I've been suicidal a lot, I've attempted in the past but it's never been like that. Never so sudden. It scared me tbh. Is this likely to happen again? I don't even know how I can prevent it because I don't really fully remember the lead up to it.