One of the things that was "comforting" to me when I was seeing a male T was that I was attracted to him so, by default, I could be attracted to other men. Masturbation and other physical signs told me I was physically "whole"/built right LOL so the rest just had to be mental. That made me feel a whole lot better about myself because I could approach it like it was a lesson I had to learn and I feel like I can pretty much learn anything. I enjoy and am good at therapy and "growing" so there's no reason I couldn't do well at "that"/the sexual lesson, it would just take the right opportunities and they would probably come along (and did :-) when I was "ready".

I figured all that out as I was crying myself to sleep one night because I had been at a boy "friend's" house and we were sleeping in the same bed but I couldn't deal with that, just sleeping in a bed with any other person, male or female, and had to get up and leave at 2:30-3:00 in the morning or whatever it was. I felt totally defeated wondering how it would ever be possible to get married if I couldn't even sleep in the same bed with anyone? But figuring out that I wasn't "flawed" it was just a learning/experience/emotional problem thing (outside "Myself") not unlike other things I was doing in therapy gave me new hope.