Dear Brentus,
I have shared some of your fears. My diagnosis' are MDD, Mood disorder, and GAD. I sometimes wonder is untreated anxiety plus having a lot of legitimate things to worry about led to the MDD and Mood disorder. Though I have always had depression since childhood. But it was the type of depression I could eventually overcome without medical attention.
Anyways, prior and up until the day of my attempt, I was taking xanax (it's a benzodiazapine just like klonopin). When I was realised from the hospital, I never again touched the stuff. I was in intensive care, intensely dosed with painkillers for so long that I don't know if I experienced any withdrawal.
I sometimes wonder if the "numbing" aspects of the medication played a small role in the attempt. I've also read that they are addictive and people build up a tolerance to them/only continue to get anxiety relief if they increase the dosage over time.
The things our drugs do to us is a scary thing. I fear them too.
Sincerely, Myst