I'd say it depends on what you call "there"? I think she's referring to what is there to, or for, her.

I've only talked about this once and it was to my old t...

Right before my father called to tell me he was dx'ed with lung cancer (He knew already, but I'd not seen him in 14 years), I was in bed, in the place between sleep and awake and from the corner of the room my father called my name. It was his deep, "marine's" voice. It was him.

Then after he passed (one week), the same exact thing happened from a different corner of my bedroom at the same time...in the place between sleep and awake.

I was the only one he reached out to when he was dx'ed and I'm so blessed to have had the end time with him. It was so healing, though traumatic.

He let me know that I was always first in his thoughts, and never out of them even when we were apart and he was "doing his thing". It was not a dream. My name was in my father's voice and coming from outside of my head, from the corner of the room. Now, I could say it happened after his death due to my always thinking of him, the trauma, etc. However, for that to happen prior to his death? I don't know. I wasn't thinking of him at all...I'd not seen him in 14 years, etc. When it happened, I actually expected to find out somehow that he'd passed...he hadn't though I did hear from him about a week after that.

I'll tell you that he was connected to his Heaven for quite a while before he passed...kinda half here and half there. I took my oldest (she's the spitting image of me...a younger, softer me and he'd not seen her since she was about 7) and God love him, the shock on his face when we walked in because he thought she was an angel (a younger me) and he had woken up in Heaven. He had his full mental capacity until the very end.

I don't know what to say about these things. I don't know whether it came from my mind as a "yearning" or premonition, or both...or something else. I don't understand it. I can only state what happened to me twice...never before, and not since.

I wouldn't think twice about it if it had only happened after his passing. I could say it was many things. But for the same exact thing to happen before I'd even seen him or knew of his illness, I can't explain away...especially when I'd never done anything like this before...ever...or since.

KD