I just yelled at him over another email. I don't know what is wrong with me, I feel so upset with him. The irony is that I love him in a way, but the minimization of my experience was just like pouring salt in the painful wound of knowing he will always be just a therapist to me, he'll never be anything else. I guess him showing real compassion would be lowering the boundary wall too much. Even his last email, so short and referring to "individuals" who experience abuse, rather than me, Lola, his patient who he knows, who suffered abuse...just felt clinical. I yelled at him in the email that he's not lecturing his class, stop talking about this as if it's from a textbook. I'm right here. I told him I needed him to stop being clinical and be human for once. I wish I'd said it nicer but it's sent already.