No one else can say how another will/"should" react to anything! This weekend my 3 year old granddaughter started crying because her 2 year old brother told her she couldn't have any juice after her father had just told her he was pouring her some! There's no logic there LOL an older child who should "know better". Her father had to remind her, "Who is in charge of the juice?" and ask her if she really thought her 2 year old brother was :-)

We all have our own way of viewing the world and sometimes we all get it skewed in some way :-) My T and I were constantly amazed because sometimes I just didn't "get it" and yet I seem so "smart" and knowledgeable most of the time. I'm still amazed how in the late 1970s I was complaining to her about my group therapy situation for the millionth time and she said, "I really don't know much about group therapy but I don't think the other people are out to get you" and that changed everything! I had thought they were!!! I was in my late-20s and needed a "mother" to tell me it was all right, the other children would play nice.

Somewhere along the way you probably have it on an unconscious level that schools harbor shooters and that you're in danger. Why you have that idea, what it does or doesn't do for you or "mean" to you (may be like a dream and not be literal shooters but just kids that "act" like shooters) and you haven't found the right "words"/image/feelings to help make you feel safe is all. It's not a character flaw or unimportant or anything to apologize for! It's "your" thing. Everyone has/gets to have their thing! To this day I hate having classes with substitute teachers, I always feel anxious and like the class is going to get badly out of control and dangerous things will happen. I can't watch movies like Dangerous Minds because they're too scary. I'll be 57 years old next week!

You feel like you feel and you're "entitled" to feel that way, Rio! It's wholly appropriate and "good" even. You can't feel "better" if uncomfortable feelings don't make themselves manifest in the first place so you can "see" them and work with them. That's a wonderful bit of work you've done in this post, figuring out you feel like you shouldn't have a problem because you weren't "there".