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Originally Posted by TishaBuv
I was doing so well all week at my conference. The motivational speakers had me feeling in charge. I had a plan to get along in life with h. Then I got together with him. He did his button pressing, drive me to the moon thing that he keeps gaslighting me with and then pretending it's all new to him. I went into total anxiety attack futility mode.
There is no DBT workbook that can diffuse this.
I fooled myself to think I could handle being with him.
It has been seven hours, and my head is still throbbing, stomach still in knots, heart aches, neck feels like I have whiplash, joints ache.
I told him I am never setting foot back in the house again.
I know I said that I'm going to stop posting about my h on here, so I will.
No one can help me. I just have to really stay away and find the strength to move on.
It's like I keep putting my hand on the hot stove and thinking I won't get burned.
It's a PTSD reaction, but the trauma is current! I am traumatized by a man who keeps doing the same things to me that traumatize me, and acting like it's all new to him.
It's too unbelievable for anyone to believe! I don't even know what section to post in anymore.
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Hi there. My name is Kristen. I believe you. I have a son who has used gaslighting with me so bad it has almost left me emotionally crippled and unable to function. I had to pray about it and came to the realization thayout though he is my son and I love him, I cannot be around him. He is emotionally and mentally tearing me apart as wely l as his girlfriend and daughter, but it's me he focuses on the most. That is one of the hardest things to do as a mother to love your kid from a distance and not be able to be around him. He is 28 years old and a Narcissist and is getting worse each day. He almost got himself and my granddaughter killed 2 months ago in a motorcycle crash. I thought that might help him and he would become his old self and be humble and change how he is but sadly to say, it didn't and he is actually worse now to me since the accident than he ever has been. So I had to make the decision to leave him alone. I can't have him in my life. It's really sad and hurts, but it's a necessity for me to do this if I wish to live my life without having to be committed to a mental institution. My husband which is his stepfather told me I had to do this and make a choice and I did. I prayed before I did it and now it's in god's hands. But I just want to tell you that it NEVER GETS BETTER. THE BEHAVIOR PROGRESSES AND GETS WORSE. Please remember this. I am telling you this out of bitter experience that I have gone through myself. Keep your chin up.