I'm so sad and lacking in energy right now, I just struggle to make it through day by day. But I also feel like depresseion has stolen my brain. I managed to earn a master's degree and used to be very intelligent, but these days I feel like I can hardly put two brain cells together. I have forgotten how to interact with people. I want to fix my life but it feels like trying to push a boulder up Mount Everest. Someone reached out to me for advice on something and I had to tell them I can't help because I just can't think properly and I'm so sad and hopeless any advice I give is going to be colored by that.

I keep thinking about the loved ones I lost last year and crying, and thinking about how I used to have so much courage and hope. I'm just crap now.

I'm just looking for some commiseration, I guess. Anyone else feel stupid because of your depression? Is this a thing?