I abuse gabapentin and propranolol. I know it's sad. I abuse benzos too, but I'm not on one anymore. I wish I knew someone who was on them though so I could buy some from them because I can't stand this! My life sucks right now. I want a ****ing clonazepam!!!! I'd pay fifty dollars for just one. Seriously.

Right now my mom is holding my meds so I can't abuse them. It really sucks.

I'm not really doing anything at all about it though. To be honest. Except squirming because I want to take six gabapentin's right now. And every once in awhile, when my anxiety gets really bad, I start squirming because I want a clonazepam.

I think I'm going to buy some more zzzquil. Sleeping a lot seems to help.

Anyway, hugs rx. I can relate.