Best way I can describe this is to write about how a typical day goes down.

I wake up, usually quite late. i make a cuppa, browse the internet for a bit and chill. If it's crap weather out I'll play computer games and the day's basically a write off. So long as the next day isn't the same, and the one after that, I'm generally OK with this. I've got used to entertaining myself at home. It doesn't make me feel good or bad, just feels normal.

If the weathers decent, I'll get dressed, jump on my bike, pick a direction and drive until I'm lost in the countryside. I get a kick out of driving the twisties and pushing myself to be a better driver. While I'm riding my mind is completely focused on bike control so I prefer the isolation. I don't think I'd enjoy riding with other bikers much as they'd only provide a distraction.

At some point I'll find some cafe or pub and stop for lunch and a drink. I'll sit alone and study my maps, looking for interesting roads or locations to visit. I always feel a bit weird sat at a table alone while everyone else is with friends and family and chatting. I feel a lot of resentment towards them - envious at the basic social privilege that seems to be default for everyone but me.

When I've finished up and planned a route, I'll head out again. When I get to "wherever", I'll walk around the museum, gallery, zoo, sit by the lake, hike the trail: do whatever it is I've found myself at and take it in. But it always feels like an pointless exercise; like I'm missing half the experience - that these places are backdrops for social occasions and as such they're wasted on me. The things I experience can't be shared and so they become lost as a memory and my insights are wasted.

Ah, **** it... I don't even know where I'm going with this and don't have the patience at the moment to work it out.

What do you lot get out of doing things on your own?