I have always had heterosexual relationships with men, and I am married. I also have bipolar disorder and OCD. Lately my OCD is flaring up, and it is making me obsess about the possibility of being attracted to women as well as men (being bisexual). The thoughts come and go, but I am 100% certain that they are OCD, not real attraction.

Recently, I have made friends with a woman who I think very highly of. She is extremely accomplished in our field of expertise, talented, and intelligent. I feel honored that she has decided to be my friend. We spend quite a bit of time together, and sometimes I feel nervous around her when I am hypomanic and/or slightly anxious. Sometimes I obsess that maybe I have a crush on her. I have no desire to have sex with her or kiss her, but I do regard her highly.

Anybody know what having a "girl crush" means? I feel silly feeling anxious around her at times. Is there anything to be concerned about spending time with her, when I am married? I don't want to "emotionally cheat" on my husband and end up valuing my time with her more than I do him.

It's probably nothing to worry about, but I just thought I'd see what you guys said. Thanks!