I am afraid of getting lost. Of losing myself. I do it all the time. Every few year its like I wake up and realize where we are and what we are doing, and remember we are not safe here. And for a while I try to put it all together. And then I forget. And years go by until I 'wake up' again.
Is being unaware so bad? It seems so much worse to know and not be able to do anything about it. Maybe that's why I always lose myself again. Because its the only way.