Just want to check in. I had a hard day of sobriety. I took two naps to avoid the boredom. I heard of a hookup and almost used. As far as suboxone, I'll probably never touch that nasty **** again. But people have other stuff and it makes my mouth water. I'm just going through so much with finances and bills, I just want to forget.

A few days ago, I asked my bf if he's going to leave anyway. He said he's very proud of the "new" me and he's staying. I've seen the kids but they still haven't stayed here since. Even im a bit nervous around them now. Maybe it's because I'm seeing them sober for once. This is an adjustment period for all of us. I probably need my own time right now too.